So in all of this I need to learn how to deal with Daddy’s anger, disappointment or frustration with me. I had been unprepared to handle this. I had wrongly assumed that taking on the role of a Dom meant he shouldn’t be angry because he is supposed to be in control of his emotions. Well he can be in control of them and still feel them.
I have a difficult time dealing with emotional displays. Good or bad. Even ball games can make me uncomfortable. I guess that’s a result of stuffing it down and not dealing with it.
I don’t want to cry in front of anyone other than him and I cannot tell someone I’m angry with them.
In the past Daddy would hide his anger from me or even if I knew he was angry we didn’t talk about it. Silence was the usual means of operation and meaningful constructive talks about the issue were rare if at all.
So open honest communication is great until I have to cope with things I don’t want to.