I don’t know why I’m trying so hard to fit in.
In the end only Daddy matters but sometimes you just need someone other than Daddy to talk to. Sometimes Daddy needs you to have someone else to talk to.
I won’t kiss ass and fawn all over someone I’m not in agreement with. I can be polite but it eats at me. I want to recognized and not ignored.
I have this need to feel like I fit somewhere and yet I never really feel like I fit and I cannot make myself go along with the crowd just to fit in.
I don’t do well in group situations. I will only speak up if I’m very confident and if I’m laughed at or discounted I will withdraw and not speak up again.
I do better one on one but I also have a hard time getting to know anyone. It is hard to get to know someone like myself because I’m introverted and I really need someone more extroverted to draw me out.
I am sure the answer in this is to stop trying to fit in. It’s just hard. Maybe it is that all or nothing thing. I feel like I have to agree with everything or be exactly like the others to consider myself fitting.