I think my biggest issues have come from feeling inadequate when comparing myself to those projecting a lifestyle image. It is silly because dressed up however you like, it really isn’t us. It does not fulfil my purpose of finding a better path for us. Measuring him against others does not serve him. My interest lies in figuring out who I am and changing my reactions that have stood in the way of connecting with him on a level we both desire.
Rita has said many times she was not looking for a “lifestyle”. I don’t think it has clicked until now that that has been my issue over and over in this. I have been guilty of chasing it and simultaneously resisting it. Rita is so wise. 😉