I am not an outgoing person at all. In the last year and a half I have really put myself out here.
I have shared things in posts and chat that I would never share with anyone other than Daddy. It is easier to be myself through the computer.
Lately I’ve been feeling quite vulnerable and I feel myself shrinking in.
When I started the blog I didn’t expect many followers but I hoped to make some connections like I saw through the comment sections in other blogs. The response has been great and I’ve met some wonderful people. I am getting more followers that don’t comment and have very different types of blogs. I often wonder what part interests them. It is great that something resonates with them but I’m feeling a little bit on display. My own doing I know. I don’t really want to take it private because I am open to meeting new people. So for the time being I will leave it.
Facebook is a similar thing. I have met a few during this that I connected either my real or sub account and now we no longer have any communication. When there is not a comment or even a like during some significant life events then I feel you are just lurking. I felt exposed so I removed them.
I guess I feel I ran into the room and broadcasted everything. Now I feel myself pulling back. The trick is not to leave or hide but to stick with a closer circle. I need a little bit of exposure. I need to be able to talk to those that love and listen.
I needed the messages checking in on me when I said I was struggling a bit. 🙂 thank you ❤️