Sometimes I just have an aah moment. Not an aha now I know but aah sense of calm or acceptance. One such moment happened the other day.
It had been a couple of days since we had sex, he wasn’t feeling well and we were getting home from a long car ride. I started to fret a little thinking that there would be none that evening and then I just felt a sense of calmness as I thought so what if it isn’t tonight. He will take care of me.
Trusting has been hardest for me in this area. I am hoping this peaceful feeling stays. It should because our dynamic does not depend on how often but in simply knowing that he will.
As it turned out he did take care of me that evening while watching tv. Is there anything better than Star Trek and oral? Laying on him post-bliss I burst into a fit of giggles when Picard says “Come”. Just a little too late man.