Sometimes I think I’m the only one that struggles with jealousy and comparing. I know it’s crazy and silly. I am TRULY happy with our relationship right now. I am and I just keep having to turn and look back at us to appreciate that.
I love and I know I’m loved but like seeing another dog with a bone I’m envious. I don’t want THAT bone I just want to be boned like that. Lmao I crack myself up! Yes I’m immature. Obviously.
I love and appreciate all he does give me and I don’t ever want him to feel I don’t. I’m fantasizing about a world where we just get to lay around naked all the time. I can’t help it I desire him.
I try to be conscious about what I’m feeling and able to handle at the moment. Sometime I have to pass by some posts that I know will trigger me. Sometimes I don’t do well at doing that.
It isn’t as much of a struggle as it used to be and maybe I am expecting too much that it will just go away and I will never deal with it again. I suppose that isn’t likely to happen or maybe it will if I just give it…. Patience. 😉