Ram Dass had a retreat in Maui over the weekend and I signed up to get links to the videos. I took copious notes.
One session had you personifying your demons. Mine seem to be mostly small girls. Hmmm
These sessions and reading about ego and attachment have my mind swimming. I’ve always been into the self-help genre. I don’t do fiction very often. For some reason I have always been trying to figure myself out.
In my researching and reading about D/s and submission, I have too often had the desire or expectation for him to “fix me.” You know the bad stuff, the insecurities, and the self-doubt. As if I could finally just turn it over to him and it, he would take care of it.
That is not his responsibility. I am the only one that can do the work. The changes are mine to make. Yes, some changes have occurred because of the complete love I feel now but the effort is still required of me.