It’s weird how things just kind of become rituals. Lately it has been that on Friday nights he takes me shoes off. I guess because Fridays I wear tied shoes to work. The past several weeks he has been gone and I have had to take my own off. 😦
Tonight he was home and when he pointed to the floor I thought that was what he meant so i sat on the bed and held up my foot. He pointed to the ground again and said Kneel. Oh lol I knelt before him and caressed the top of my head. He thanked me for being so patient this week and apologized for being gone so much. It really helped to calm my mood. He helped me up and then told me to sit and give him my foot.
I knelt by his chair while we ate and after I snuggled in his lap for a while. While there I told him that I was trying very hard to be his good girl but that I had been struggling this week. *I felt guilty getting praised while knowing I had been in such turmoil. When I put him to bed he once again asked me to remain patient with him. He told me it helped him to see me happy.
I will keep trying. In all his worries he still takes my shoes off.