I Don’t Wanna Go Back

This was two years ago and it is how I feel again tonight. Back to work after time off always sucks. At least I only have two weeks and then I’m off for another week. I should put a few things on my to-do list for that week that are centered around him.


I took this week off because it was my birthday. I didn’t want to be at work. I wanted to do things for me. What I loved most about this week was all of the things I was able to do for you. I was able to cook you a meal I haven’t made in years. I searched for something you have wanted me to find for months. I have done household chores I know you appreciate. My favorite was greeting you naked and in my collar when you came home from work.

Doing things with you in mind was the best gift I gave myself.

I don’t want to go back to work but I know that serves you too so I will try to do it without sorrow.

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2 thoughts on “I Don’t Wanna Go Back

  1. Hugs!
    Maybe at some point you can consider changing lines of work, or at least companies/positions/whatever is possible so you go to work happy every morning?

    But good for you for remembering the important things in your life.

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  2. I felt the same way last month and now I’m on another couple weeks vacation and know it will be hard going back. I wish I could devote all my time to serving Sayyid and making his life easier. But I love how you flip it and turn working as a way to serve him too! I’m going to use that thinking when I have to return in September.

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