This was two years ago and it is how I feel again tonight. Back to work after time off always sucks. At least I only have two weeks and then I’m off for another week. I should put a few things on my to-do list for that week that are centered around him.
I took this week off because it was my birthday. I didn’t want to be at work. I wanted to do things for me. What I loved most about this week was all of the things I was able to do for you. I was able to cook you a meal I haven’t made in years. I searched for something you have wanted me to find for months. I have done household chores I know you appreciate. My favorite was greeting you naked and in my collar when you came home from work.
Doing things with you in mind was the best gift I gave myself.
I don’t want to go back to work but I know that serves you too so I will try to do it without sorrow.