“Feel loved. Don’t fear change. Remember You are my princess.”
In Braving the Wilderness Brene Brown talks about writing herself little notes which she calls her permission slips. The first note, “Permission to be excited and goofy and to have fun.” was written just before meeting Oprah for the first time. She said that they were an attempt to belong to herself and no one else. Brene points out that even with a permission slip you have to make an effort to get on the bus.
Daddy has been leaving me notes every work day for over two years now. They are written on brightly colored post-it notes. I have a thing for stationery that may or may not rival my pen addiction, so it gives me an excuse to buy new ones because you know Daddy needs them. When the stack on my dresser got out of hand I made a little treasure box to hold them. That box is now stuffed to capacity. I know I should go through them and only save the “special ones” but I find that difficult. They are all special just because of the time he took to write them.
When I read that passage in Brene’s book I thought of these notes. They are my permission slips. They are permission to be me. Permission to see who I am and be proud, to be patient and strong. Permission to feel his love and pride in me every day. Most days I have at least one in my pocket and sometimes I have several. There are days that reading it first thing upon waking up is enough but there are days where I have to pull it out of my pocket and read it again. I take a step forward and get on that bus because Daddy says I can.